Thursday, July 23, 2009

TWO BIRTHDAYS ONE DAY APART

Yesterday was my birthday. There was not much celebration, but just wishes from wife, children, staffs and friends.

To me it is just a day for me to reflect and recollect.

A schoolmate dropped by at the office and we went out for lunch at The New Horizon restaurant, just the two of us.

Today is my late son's birthday. He would be 23 today if he was still around. Everyone of us, even Amalia his younger sister, in the family remembers his birthday.

Khairul Syakirin, that was his name, was so special to us, especially we two and Diyana. The four of us were very close...when he was facing the great trial of Leukemia.

We have come to term and accept his passing...it is just that his memories still linger among us...in fact he is still very much a part of us...

We can still remember his antics...his words were so sharp and witty...sometimes so full of wisdom for a five year old.

"If I were not around...it'll be easier for Ma." That was what he said when he realized he had caused so much trouble to his mother....tears flowed from our eyes...

When he had to undergo fasting because of his gastric bleeding he asked," Why aboh do not buy KFC for me? If aboh do not have money, please take my money..." Both of us were sad for not fulfilling his wish...he did not understand why he was not given food...

When his kid brother (Syazwan) was not brought to the ward for some times, he once said," I miss Syazwan a lot ma..."

But most amazing of all, so many times he asked me to write his story..."Please write my story...my sufferings in my fight against leukemia...so that other people will understand how tough it is..."

I did fulfil his wish...his story came out in The New Straits Times, in four weekly series....

I wonder, if he is still with us now, how he will look? All full grown young man....

4 comments:

Martin said...

It was indeed a heart wrenching story that I read through your chapters a couple of times. The wish of your son had been well fulfilled by a loving father. It is always the wish of parents that their children are healthy and strong and it really does not matter how well they do in exams and in their career.

God always did mysterious things on earth that we do not understand why this happened, one fine day when we meet God face to face perhaps He will tell us all.

May God always shower His blessings upon you and your family.

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Anonymous said...

first of all, happy belated birthday..semoga semakin success dlm menempuh hari2 mendatang..secondly, sorry to hear that..baru tahu pasal ur late son..bykkan berdoa smoga dia tergolong di kalangan org yg beriman..amen..
from: lina - ppv maran

azahar said...

It is ok. He passed away very long time ago. Try my old postings to read his story...Thank you for dropping by